… for love or at least there are several of us out there just yearning for some real, sincere, honest intimacy.  If you don’t believe me just look around the blogosphere… more on this later.

What a weekend.

Well not the kind that you are all thinking of. LOL

It was a fairly productive weekend.

1.        I finished up my July birthdays with my son’s. RT turned 8 on Sunday. Both of my kids were fortunate enough to have me slave in the kitchen this week producing meals to feed the near and dear to us. I enjoy cooking and the accolades that come with serving…ribs so tender the meat falls off the bones…chili that starts off sweet and ends with a gentle kick. Nothing brings a smile like a good meal followed by a pelting of airsoft pellets (yes, I got my son some for his birthday…a real boys toy). Along with birthdays come…our immediate family members and the associated drama (which I’ll omit as we all have it).

2.       Boo stayed with us from Friday until this morning. This fine lady is my children’s maternal grandmother.  Yes, I can hear you now…He still associates and tolerates his ex-mother-in-law? Yes I do.  Matter of fact she helps me more than my own mother. This weekend she helped me hang my wall décor (This is a big deal seeing how I am a guy that has no earthly idea how to decorate. Now my house looks like we actually live there…a big improvement). She also is the one taking my kids off to her house for three days and nights…the only one who is willing to do this for me.  So I am thankful and willing to tolerate her subtle “improvements I can make for the children” comments…ugh.

3.       I managed to interact with Bella from across the street.  Bella is my VASM (very attractive single mom) who lives directly across from me and is of Italian descent. Bella has a smile that just does something for me.  Anyway…  Bella offered for LA to sleep over on Friday night with her girls as they were celebrating a b-day. I was like ok…and then offered to take one of her son’s to see Batman with my son and I. This interaction really sparked our kids. So much that one her daughters stayed at my house Saturday night while she went away with her girl friends.  So it all sounds good…right? Well the kicker is Bella has five kids. Ages from 3 to 13. She is a great mom and had many great attributes… So why does she have to be my neighbor? That should place her into the “just friends” bucket shouldn’t it? I am flirting with her and getting some response back… however no “spooning” as of yet. LOL. We are going to have some wine soon so we can chat without chaos. To which I look forward to…the eyes. OMG

So now here I sit about to leave work with three nights to myself…with nothing to do. No dates… No cuddling… Not even a good conversation to be had. Woe is me, right? Nah. I could have put some energy into it…however I am not in a rush at the moment. I am content.  I do yearn for that intimacy that QTmama describes in her blog. Yet, I am tired of energy wasted without reward.  Feelings of guilt left from empty sex. The reward to me is that one who gets me…and I am ready for that reward. Until then…I’ll just go to my sister’s house and let her cook for me. Then I’ll go set it off at the gym.